-------el celestial concentración & el dragón fuerza-------

Bored?? NO way!!

2004-12-03T23:27:00.000-08:00

Went out with aik kun, yan ting, hanis & daryl today...haha..had so much fun. Went to yan ting's school for meeting.( Hor..yan ting??) Haha..what a reason to give. Hehe..me and my number games...hahaha...after that daryl kana left alone modelling in a sleeping position at 1 of the playground in central park. Hehehe...then we went to the pineapple playground to hide and see his reaction. Hehe..What scare us is not his reactions but a 5 cents coin. It juz came from no where..haha...

Then they came to my house and play 21 points. Losers must drink 1 cup of water. Haha..yan ting got new nick le..haha.."Da jie da"...from the channel 8 "ye man qing jia"..hehe..the pattern almost same same de...hehe..i drank quite alot but don't feel anything. I don't even feel my stomach bloated. Hehe..guess the water really just evaporate de bah..hehe...

Next play the murderer game. Hehe..fun fun...hm..i was killed twice by a mistaken murderer. Haha..yan ting ah yan ting..Erm..i mean da jie da...don't anyhow wink wink wink ah..I die 2 times for nothing leh...haha...daryl is a potential 'xiao gao'...hehee...laughter completely the same..haha..as for aik kun ah...haha..cool muderer..haha..can run easily de..either she too good le or the detective too lousy..hahaha...

Anyway..i had great fun today. Guess they all felt the same bah...hehehe...i never regret going out with you guys..haha..1 word to describe being with you guys...FUN!!! haha...

Bittersweet...

2004-12-02T22:53:00.000-08:00

Long time didn blog le....kinda bz lah...haix...anyway, the camp is postpone to next year le..our dreams are dashed..Haix...what dissapoint me the most is they started internal fighting..Lucky it all stop and we shld carry on le bah..i leave u with this-----

Bitter sweet

Bitter sweet memories,

Planned with our hearts.

Bitter sweet lessons,

Easy and hard.

Bitter sweet expriences,

Right from the start.

Bitter sweet endings,

When our dreams have part.

As what shawn said, we will carry on and move forward. Hm...gonna end with a quote bah..<<Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent.>>

Judgement Day..

2004-11-15T23:23:00.000-08:00

1 bright star have 5 sharp points. Each of them represents an aim that i am hunger to achieve.

1st - Acedemic
Study to have good grades. Above expectations is what i aim for.

2nd - Physically
Keep my body in tip top condition. Have been working on it so far. A healthy body a healthy mind. So i can concentrate better in all the things i do.

3rd - Prefectorial Board
Acheive in making the sec 2 & 3 prefects' camp which is likely to happen 1st week of December. And also, making my charity shield which i have not touch on yet successful.

4th - NPCC
I promise that i will have a LMSC with the cadets. I'm a guy who never breaks promises, at least try lah. So after the prefects' camp, i will fly towards NPCC le.

5th - Family and Friends
Sticks and stones may break my bones but what every i do, i will never let my family and friends down. Hope all my hard work can earn happiness for me and my parents.

Inspiration sets my motivation which i must make some decision of rejection. Tough decision but for the people i love, i will sacrifice my body, my soul and my heart for them. So...3 tough decisions.

1st - Playtime
Work hard play hard. Gonna spend lesser time playing from now on. Every hour makes a huge impact on my results. There is no such thing of changing my playfulness. So i will still be playful and "BEWARE OF GETTIN PUNK'D"

2nd - Fish and Chips
The answer everyone is waiting for. All of you are wrong. They answer is none is them. I'm going for anyone. Since i'm gonna use my time to study strive for it. As i have only 1 chance 1 opportunity for it, i have not enough time for relationships or messy messy stuffs. Fish has nicholas. Nic is a good guy, you are lucky to have him. Erm...the others, I'm sorry. Really really sorry. Should listen to Jae's advice to act quicky but saying it and doing it is totally different. Haix...

3rd - My hobbies
Soccer is my passion thats keep the groove in my life. Swimming will still be once a week as it keeps me fit and i feel relax during swimming. Badminton, i never spent much time on it de as once master 'concentration over strength' where i learnt it from another area, i will further improve my skills instead of deproving. Lastly, my secret activity. Where i learnt and still learning for defence. It's no secret actually lah, I just will tell you guys the next time i blog. Anyway, I will never ever say goodbye to them but i guess i have to spend lesser time on them le.

Slight peek into my next entry, i will talk about my heritage as it is being brought up by a friend, Farahin. And also, my defence.

Visiting the cave of Medusa..

2004-11-14T19:12:00.000-08:00

Today went to medusa house for Hari Raya. Hehehe....the food was damn good. Her mom is a real good cook.Hehe..can open restuarant le. Got chicken, beef, lotong and many many more...The goodies were real nice. At first i thought they were bought but soon found out that they were actually homemade. Oh yar..we told ghost storys and talk about work. It was so comfortable. We were even discussing things but in a different environment. Hm...her parents, grandma and sister were very friendly. Hehe...her sis looks like her. Just different hairstyle. Haha...making her sis not turning me into stone. Erm...her sis studies in the sports school and if i'm not wrong, she is in the netball team. Very sporty huh.Haha...anyway, thanks for everything. Had a nice afternoon with you guys. You guys are cool..Wish you all breeze through bad luck and good luck comes visit you.

My godma is comming. So got to go. Cya...

1st LMSC meeting..

2004-11-13T22:22:00.000-08:00

Today suppose to meet tim sum kia, chestnut and sean at the playground for a meeting de..Erm..sean was unable to make it. Kinda sad because 1 less person means lesser ideas. Somemore his ideas sometimes very cranky de..hehe...So the 3 of us had meeting for about 3 hours. We finshed the topics of LMSC. Now left with the powerpoint slides and the notes. Gonna work harder and faster le. Hehe...good job chestut. He also finished planning our food and drinks supply le. However i made some changes to it. Don't worry, gonna tell you and the rest of the team the plan and changes. Hehe...70% done. Tuesday gonna touch on another 5% bah. Anyway, during the meeting, we saw Haw wei. He seems to be angry. Haix...hope he and tim sum kia gets better bah.

3 topics....

2004-11-12T20:03:00.000-08:00

Found out 3 things today....
Firstly....
The swimming pools in bedok swimming complex stinks. Their water is so dirty and tiles are yellowish-brown. Yuck!! i swam there with Shao Cheng and Derrick for 2 hours then we cannot tahan le. What made us left is not the water but the rain. Suspect case for acid rain. Hehehe...anyway, i saw some seniors of Jyss there too. Hehe...they don't know my name but called me prefect prefect....hahaha...cool..

Secondly....
I sent shivers to someone wor. Haha..it even went down her spine. Hahaha...That girlgirl hor...hahaha...she even had to shift to her parents room to sleep..Hehehe...(Becareful wor....those things may haunt you de wor.) Anyway, you need not be afraid of the Night Confidence Challenge de wor. As it is mentioned confidence le. Have confidence in yourself and fears will become nothing but a historical word. Hehe...but i have to say, hehe...if you ever see this entry, don't look back because you will never not what's behind. Hehe..maybe she will ask you, this shivering girlgirl, to lend her a comb. Hehehe....

Thridly....
She is not doing anything...still not doing...hahaha...expects us to do..What's this!!! we do not need a person to lead us liao lor. She suppose to glue us together but she didn. She suppose to work the hardest but she is not. Haix...lastest project is orientation. But for her, not even a pen lifted. Then how you expect us to respect you. Respect comes from what you done and not from your title. Erm....bad news for her. The 3 galaticos in your commitee will not be available this time. Since the start of the year, we have been doing almost everything to bring us up. Now, i hope you start working. Summaries your bad luck. 3 galaticos off the pitch, 2 members will be in another larger project. Hm...how how how?? haha...not for me to worry...but for you..Come on..do something lah...at least start lah...haix...

Everytime..

2004-11-11T17:17:00.000-08:00

Everytime

LATELY I'M NOT WHO I USED TO BE

SOMEONE'S COME AND TAKEN ME

WHERE I DON'T WANNA GO

IF I KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE TO DO

IN ORDER TO BE THERE FOR YOU

WHEN YOU WERE FEELING LOW

AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED

WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE

NOW I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT

ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

SAVE ME

I'VE FALLEN FROM MY DESTINY

YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE

I'VE THROWN IT ALL AWAY

NOW YOU'RE GONE

IT'S TIME FOR ME TO CARRY ON

BUT BABY I JUST CAN'T GO ON

WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE

AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED

WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE

NOW I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT

ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

WE CAN SURVIVE IT

ALL THE PAIN WE FEEL INSIDE

YOU RELIED ON ME AND NOW I'VE LET YOU DOWN

NOW I PROMISE YOU FOREVER

I WILL BE THE BEST I CAN

NOW I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT

ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND

EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND

EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT

EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE

THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND

AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY

SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

What's that for?? I also don't know. Haha...

Talk talk talk..

2004-11-10T18:41:00.000-08:00

Today got special ops. meeting. Good news is everything is going smoothly. The bad news is we may have to work double hard for good results. I let the muslim instructors a 1 week break due to their Hari Raya. Hm...guess the remainding few have to work extra hard le. I have 100% faith in them and us to suceed. The big project we are handling now is about 65% complete. Yeah!! hehehe...

After the meeting i went home but tim sum kia called me and asked me to go downstairs her block to talk talk. Hm..Aik Kun, Yan Ting and Hanis is there too. Haha..we told ghost stories and talked about the up-comming camp. Hehe..then there is this guy in white have been looking at us or about 30mins in the same location. I went and chase him halfway and let him go. Nah..don't talk about that guy le..Hehe...the best part is four of us saw Chester and Celestina dating. Guess chester is for real this time. I just hope he gives 100% to the project special ops. is handling as he kinda slacken after having a stead. Please draw a line between work and relationship bah. Hey..i say this not because i blame you wor, i just want you to gain exprience from this planning. Hahaha...both of you are caught in action le. Hehehe..i also have a nick for Yan Ting le.."RA girl".Hehe...anyway, i had a good time with 4 of you. Haha..thanks for calling me down hor, tim sum kia.

Tired..

2004-11-08T17:28:00.000-08:00

Today has been a tiring day. Played with shawn for almost 4 hours. Hehe...2 hours of soccer followed by 2 hours of basketball. But the good news is this week will be a 'domestic rest week' for me. During nightime, my tuition will stop for this whole week. Yipee!! can relax le..haha..However my maths tuition on tuesday de is still on. But i don't mind lah. haha...Preparing for next year.

Nothing Much..

2004-11-07T22:11:00.000-08:00

Today woke up kinda late. Did my tuition work. Actually today kinda sian lah..Nothing much to say. Signing off..

Gettin Better?

2004-11-06T13:52:00.000-08:00

No....The knee and shin injury that i recieved yesterday is still a burden. Just 1 need at least 1 or 2 more days to recover as i fell and hit against metal. Haix...Fish called me just now to help her buy Hello Kitty from MacDonalds but i can't help her. My injury hurts even when i walk. Sorry wor..Hope i get well quick enough to go swimming next monday.

Change the skin of my blog just now. I think this skin suits me more.

Eyes Looking At Eyes

You Turned Away As I Look Into Your Eyes

Mind Connected To Mind

It Made Me Harder To Find

All The Things That We Did

In My Mind They Still Leads

I Tried To Forget

But Everytime Failure Is What I Get

Lips Zipped By Lips So Wild

Did You Ever Know How I'm Feeling All This While

Been Weeks Since We Last Exchange A Simple "Hi"

It Really Broke The Soul Of Thy

When Will The Day Come Again Being Question

When You Initiated A Conversation

Been Living Without It

Hand Securing Hand

I Just Have One Simple Wish

And That Is To Be With You

Fun in the playground

2004-11-05T18:22:00.000-08:00

At first, it was only Medusa, Tim Sum Kia and me planning the farewell party for Mrs Lee. We called the rest of the Exco but they were all nowhere to be found. So we finished it before they arrived. Haha...Funny thing is Fish was just at Sharon's house which is the block in front of us and we can't contact her. Of course we can't...she is not at home. At last, only Sean, Medusa, Tim Sum Kia, Fish, Shers and me was present. We were also accompanied by Sharon.Haha..The exco meeting at the playground did not turn out to be a meeting. We played blind mice which i re-injured my old injury, my knee cap, and i injured my shin. Hurts big time but i so call get better in about 10 mins. That injury was still an distraction to my movement but i don't like to show people my weakness de. Some injury even my parents also don't know. So i continued playing with the kids at the playground. Haha...it was so fun. We were just like a little children comparable to those kids there. Haix...Sean and i were molested by those kids there. They just loved to touch our butts and look at our underwear when they were accidentally visible. Haha...those kids chase me round and round the playground. Then i asked them to chase Fish round the playground too. Haha...it was so fun.

Better and better

2004-11-03T22:10:00.000-08:00

Wow..guess my soccer skills are getting better and better. Yesterday i played soccer with Nigel, Edwin, Shao Cheng and Hong Wei. Just some shooting of the ball. But i scored using Super Lob, Barca Kick and I even curled the ball like a U-turn. The best goal is still the corner kick. Can't believe it but i scored kicking a corner kick. Imagine how much the ball curled. Everyone can't believe it. Kinda cool har. Hehe..Also yesterday, the maths tuition was kinda good. I understand what is he teaching and i think i will improve next year.

Paper Angel

2004-11-01T22:18:00.000-08:00

Wah!! Bad news for me!! Almost everyday i have tuition le. Haix...Monday is Chinese...Tuesday is Chemistry and Maths...Wednesday is Bio...Thursday is Chinese...Guess this leads me to have lesser time to blog. So for today onwards, i guess i can only dig out some time on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and the weekends to blog. Hope all this hardwork will be paid off by having good results for my Os.

Christ defeated!!

2004-10-31T22:26:00.000-08:00

Christ defeated and thrashed 8-0. I top again with 5 goals. This match really humiliated my team opponent. At first they got quite a number of supporters de..but when the scoreline is 3-0 in the first half, some of their supporters left le..The first 15mins i opened the account of that game with a free kick. Follow by two strikes in the 23min and 40min. Quite happy to earn my hat-trick during the first half. Second half midfielder Kyne, scored the 4th goal of the match at 52min. 61min, sending off of one of christ's son due to dirty play. A header by defender Shuan made it 6-0 at 68min. At 76min, i sprint through 3 defenders and tricked the goalkeeper for the 4th goal. Their humiliation did not stop when i ended the match with another free kick at 84min. 8-0 final score.

The named their team 'Christ' after their religion. But they did not act like civilise human. That team's players called themselves sons of christ and before the match say that the muslim in my team are weaklings and stupid to fast even that there is a match which they garuanteed a victory. They somemore said that they need not be so stupid to fast as their lord bless them. Tension was built and i destroyed their cocky soul with a thrashing results. We did not insult any religion including theirs, christians, but why must they insult others. I thought no matter who we worship, we are all still humans and should respect each other religion. Hope this match teach them a lesson. Sorry if I destroy their team with 5 goals but i will not respect your team if you don't even know a little respect. Even if you respect your own religion, it does not mean that you cannot give respect to other religion.

Summary of match:
Score 8-0
Honsonn 15min,23min,40min,76min & 84min.
Kyne 52min
Shuan 68min

Young leaders' seminar...

2004-10-30T21:52:00.000-07:00

Today i went to the young leaders' seminar. I was learning cantonese as my friends Hui ling, Vivian, Shers and Tim Sum Kia taught me. Haha..i sounded like an 'ang moh'. Hot news!! I fell in love with Lee Huei Min. Not in the person but the song she played using the violin..HAHA!! She flew from USA to Singapore just for this seminar. Told the 1300 participants about her sotry and it really was touching. Haha..Everything was cool and especially the 3rd speaker. He is a damn funny person. Let me share to you one of his jokes.

Two ah bengs were at a park. The rain is comming and there is lightning and thunder. Ah Beng 1 ask Ah Beng 2 a question.
Ah Beng 1: "Why do i see lightening first then i hear the thunder??"
Ah Beng 2:" You Idiot!! It is because your eyes are in front of your ears!!"

Haha...Then after that seminar, the prefects headed home. Fish, mama lingmong, shers and me wanted to walked back to tampines from kallang. It sound kinda impossible but we tried. We straight away appiled what we learnt in the seminar, about going to the distance. We took 3 hours including dinner at MacDonalds in Suntec City. Haha..we did not walk back to Tampines but took the MRT due to the bad weather. Upon reaching the interchange, shers took bus 292 to her cousin house and fish and me took bus 291. Haha..She fell asleep on the bus. Hehehe...she even look so sweet just like in person even when she is sleeping. We had some talk about her block. Haha..when come to her stop. I stood up and got down the bus with her. Hehe..she was shocked. Guess i was crazy bah. I got down the bus just to see her walk home and bid her farewell. Then i ran home. Good news!! my stamina seems to improve due to the swimming that i am invovle in. I reach home after running non stop for about 5 mins.

Goodbye...

2004-10-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

Mrs Lee is leaving Jyss. Today i took part in the GOH to salute and bid farewell to the school principal. The crowd was cheering so loudly and i guess the commands that James(NCC) and me(NPCC) gave was not that clear bah. The cheering was too loud le but it marked a memorial day for the fouding principal. Haha..I even went on stage and gave a speech, i think is a dedication bah. The dedication is at the bottom,

Good afternoon Mrs Lee, Mrs Oh, Mr Galistan, teachers and fellow schoolmates. I am Honsonn here representing the uniform groups at JYSS. We would like to take this opportunity to express our gratitude to Mrs Lee for all the support she has given us over the years.
To be responsible, righteous and resolute, the 3Rs as Mrs Lee has constantly been advising us to adhere to as young individual. Well I would like to add one more R, Respect. To express how we feel about her for all she has done for us in JYSS.
Under her leadership, she has united the whole school to stand together to fight battles after battles.
Mrs Lee, you thanked us constantly for our cooperation. Now we like to thank you for taking care of us and guiding us on the right path. I salute you. Thank you.

Kinda cool bah. Did this in a short period of time. I guess every book will come to an ending page. Wonder how is Mrs Oh gonna be like as principal. Hehe..

ZOO ZOo zoo..

2004-10-28T22:07:00.000-07:00

Today went to zoo. Haha..my friends thought that it's gonna be another stupid and boring outing. But with me around, that will sure never happen. We were all laughing so happily all the way. Shawn, Shao Cheng, Nigel, Cedric and Derrick sure got enjoy bah. I was like a joker all the way. The funniest thing happens with a monkey. It was making noises and we reply back. The mankey went louder and we and James' group reply even louder. The 3 time, the monkey got angry and scream..Hahaha...that scence was so funny. Even the tourists were all laughing.

2 win 1draw 1lose..

2004-10-27T20:37:00.000-07:00

Finish all the soccer matches for Ph2 le..Results of our house under 17 team is 2 win 1 draw and 1 lose. Kinda fed up with that referee who gave the penalty to dragon in our last match. Don't know there is such thing as acting de. It is so obvious that the injury was an act, but that referee is so blind to believe him. I took the lost very easily as it is only a friendly. And in a game of soccer, there are times you defeat others but there are times too where others defeat you.

Haha..after the soccer match, went patrolling with Jeylnn and Chester. Haha...found out so many 'secrets' about chester. Hehehe..

What the?!?!

2004-10-26T16:39:00.000-07:00

haix...today no post exams activity because of the rain. Nevermind, we went to the hall watch school of rock. It is cool man. Haha.."the man.." Anyway, gonna prepare on my soccer matches tomorrow. Hope phoenix will win and became overall champion.

23 quotes...

2004-10-24T22:42:00.000-07:00

For me, there are 23 quotes that generate the power for me. No matter whether is work, failure or sucess, these quotes will remind me of what am i and what should i do. So i want to take this chance to share with you guys. Oh yar..the quotes are randomly arranged.

Quote No.1
Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.

Impossible is not a fact.

It's an opinion.

Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare.

Impossible is potential.

Impossible is temporary.

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING

-Adidas

Quote No.2

"Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without action."

-Benjamin Disraeli

Quote No.3

"Our real problem is not our strength today; it is rather the vital necessity of action today to ensure our strength tomorrow."

-Calvin Coolidge

Quote No.4

"The day soldiers stop bringing you their problems is the day you have stopped leading them. They have either lose confidence of you helping them or concluded that u do not care. Either case is failure of leadership."

- Colin Powell

Quote No.5

"Believe it can be done. When you believe something can be done, really believe, your mind will find the ways to do it. Believing a solution paves the way to solution."

-Dr. David Schwartz

Quote No.6

"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually fear you will make one."

-Elbert Hubbard

Quote No.7

"Happiness lies in the joy of achievement and the thrill of creative effect."

-Franklin D. Roosevelt

Quote No.8

"Leadership is doing what is right when no one is watching."

-George Van Valkenburg

Quote No.9

"A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities and an optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties."

-Harry Truman

Quote No.10

"The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy."

-Jim Rohn

Quote No.11

"Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life."

-Leo Buscaglia

Quote No.12

"Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent."

-Marlene vos Savant

Quote No.13

"The man who has no imagination has no wings."

-Muhammad Ali

Quote No.14

"A person is like a tea bag -- only in hot water do you realize how strong he is."

-Nancy Reagan

Quote No.15

"Victory belongs to the most persevering."

-Napoleon Bonaparte

Quote No.16

"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."

-Theodore Roosevelt

Quote No.17

"To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world"

-Unknown

Quote No.18

"Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush, hold it too loose, it'll fly"

-Unknown

Quote No.19

"Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you're going to do now and do it."

-William Durant

Quote No.20

“Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there.”

-Will Rogers

Quote No.21

"Continuous effort--not strength or intelligence--is the key to unlocking our potential."

-Winston Churchill

Quote No.22

"The price of greatness is responsibility."

-Winston Churchill

Quote No.23

"The real glory is being knocked to your knees and then coming back. That's real glory."

-Vince Lombardi

1 good news and 1 bad news. The good news is i played a match today and save my team from a draw. Final score 2-1. Yeah!! Second goal makes the final decision on who is gonna win. Now the bad news. During that match, i injured myself at the knee cap. Guess i will not be play for about 1 week because i recover very fast de. And this also means that i may not turn up in the 4 soccer matches phoenix is playing. And i'm not the only phoenix participant injured. Si Kai is also injured. Haix..although i said that house Ph2 soccer team is a racist, but it's my house and team afterall. I hope phoenix get the championship this year.

Raining love

2004-10-23T18:25:00.000-07:00

Raining love

Raindrops falls from the sky

Priceless rain is like the love of my

Powerful lightning and thunder

Follow my heart waiting in the rain for her

No words or languages

Can ever describe thy feeling

Raindrops without water is me without you

Love floods the heavens

And it bless the earth

When drought comes

Water quenches thirst not love

In times of trouble

I will protect a fish leaving the puddle

I've found the answer!! Guess Sophie is right about the word and nick 'Toro'. Haha..it's not what it means but who is it for and why is it there for. Thankz.

Happy me with a little sadness...

2004-10-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

Civil War have stop for me. No more domestic fights. That's a good news for me. My mom even allowed me to go swim then go to rac farewell party.

Today went out for dinner with my classmates. Farewell party for rac. At first we were quite angry at jae, he let us waited for 1 hour 20 mins for him. At last, we found out that he had fever. Haix...so sad..guess the last time he will see rac is this morning bah. Anyway, we went to seol garden for dinner. We played games in there. Haha..it was very fun and funny. We played number game and the person who hits the number must eat the 'delicacy' that is created. Haha..the girls led by tigeress created the worst looking, worst smell, worst in everything dish. But guess they dig a hole for themself as they eat it by themselves as they kept losing. Haha..last game Nicholas lose. But i, Eng teck, Larry, Shao cheng very man and loyal de lor.. We share the pain with him. The dish suck big time. The ingredients are suppose to be nice but once mixed together, they are yuck!! It look like cement. Haha...Then we carry on with the papaya game. Losers we settle outside. Haha..the boys won again, finishing the papayas in 1 min. Yeah!! haha...the girls were punish outside the shopping centre. They were all drenched with water. However, Eng teck, Larry and Shao cheng got wet together with the girls. Haha...Only Nicholas and i survived. On our way to the mrt, Nicholas and i suan them by saying "wah..outside raining ah". haha...Oh yar...1 thing to complain. Nicholas say wrong thing i kana pinch by tigeress. Where got fair. Haha..Had great fun. But out of all the fun, i also tried to avoid the word 'fish'. Whenever i hear nicholas like fish i will avoid de. Haix...why must this happen. 2 friends like the same person. What a story. Sure won't get award de. Haha...

Stupid Phoenix house!! ask me to play for you then treat me like enemy. Earlier i know i don't play for this house le. So racist and unfriendly de. Out the 7 players, 6 malays and 1 chinese. Then that captain put me on the bench. Fariz and Joshua are the only players with sportsmanship de. I only got a chance to play for 5 mins and touching the ball by doing a trick. And i was only substitude in because Joshua was injured. Stupid racist and lousy house. Somemore say wanna be the champion. If that house like that carry on in this manner, it may be the champion but a unfair one.

Sophie going back to UK. haix...sad. How long must i wait to see her again. She is the closest cousin i ever have. Haix..She sms me not to change the nick she give me or esle she won't bother me le..haha...got such thing de ah..haha..nevermind, if that is her wish, i will follow lor. Haha..

Bad Blood

2004-10-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

Bad Blood

The spark that set the fire

Made peace like cheap flyers

Pieces by pieces it fly away

Only memories were made to stay

Angry clouds darken hid the sun

What's leftover is your only son

The war no love no nothing but pain

My soul is thrown on the midnight lane

Happiness, joy like the ghostly cranes

But the bright colours started to faint

The ugly faces are for my future above

So am i compettitor since my birth

Petals of the rose showered me with love

But the torns multiply the black doves

The tears that flow is mix with anger

You tear my pages with a hanger

Respect does not go by your title

You should earn it little by little

Banned me from meeting a decade old

All those things turned it all cold

Relationship is from love to foe

It's like thousand grey doe

The other side

A lovely side

Blood from heart will tend to leak

Medicine comes from seeing you every week

Icy flame

Never felt like this till she came

Our blood may be linked

But it's only in the name

Water of pacific cannot sastify thy thirst

It quenched no thirst with no love

Toro, pescar, what's in the name

You wiping my tears will never feel same again

Why me?

2004-10-20T21:39:00.000-07:00

Wah...guess i am really a topic to talk about bah...Today had celebration for rac's departure and i can also become the hot topic. Haha..kinda lame hor..hehe..

My results for today..well, they are above expectations except for my science. Gonna concentrate on my science during the holidays le..

Should i play for my house, phoenix. This house given me a bad impression on liking to put me on the bench. Sorry..Sec.1 i played for phoenix for about 15mins and they put me onto the bench. I angrily walk out and never even thought of turning back. Conclusion..erm...i will not play for phoenix. I will give my full concentration to the Charity shield team. Anyway, hope you guys win.

You brighten up my everything.

2004-10-19T16:44:00.000-07:00

Thank you Sophie. You really made me very happy yeaterday.Haha..She called me Toro all the way. Haha..even our relatives thought that Toro is really my name. I could not explain to them so some called me by my actual name and some by my nick.Haha..Then there is this girl, should be my cousin bah, she called me Toro gorgor..Haha..Cute..Haha..Yesterday's dinner was wow..Hehe... Congrats to my cousin and hope you and your husband will lead a good life. Hehe...Work harder, i want to have another niece or nephew.Haha...The attire that Sophie and me wore really matched.Cool.Haha..All white links to my quote"Spiritual Purity". Sophie..sin las, yo todavia irle mal. Yo am recuperar de mi algo que no se hace condicion. Pase lo que pase. Garcias, Sophie.

Tomorrow i will be taking my results for SA2 le..hope everything will go smoothly for me. Please, i need to pass this time. I don't wanna beat anyone in the results, but i wanna beat myself. Because i think that beating other people may prove nothing course they may deprove(although everyone in 3e2 will not deprove de..) So beating myself is the most practical thing to do.

I'm getting my Punk'd cells back. Warning!! Someone might get Punk'd tomorrow and he/she will remember this event for life. I've already targetted you.Haha.. Also tomorrow will be my first day on job for my proposals.

Till Death Do Part Us Match...

2004-10-17T19:05:00.000-07:00

Finally..I'm driving towards my on-form condition due to the activities i plan. They are still pending. Once i find foundation to donate, 80% i will suceed. Gonna spent my holiday time planning the charity shield. I think i will be donating the money to those unfortunate children. I am still deciding which children foundation i will be donate. Why the children?? Firstly i love children, they are so pure. Secondly, they might contribute to the world in the future. Thirdly, it's a pity for them to give up their hopes for life now because they have a long way more. Thank you Jae, for giving me the idea during the class outing. I always thought that a change is quite impossible. But after our conversation on changes, you change my way of thinking and i gonna change many children lives. Once i succeed, lets find a day and visit those kids that we changed. Okay? hehe...

Just few days ago i received a threat from someone that he is gonna make me fall. Dissapointing for him, he did not succeed. Dissapointing for me, i knew him since Primary 5 and he changed into another person. Not for the better, but for the worst. Even his girlfriend agrees with me. I don't mind the fact the he is opposing against me because what he can do is to hurl vulgarities and uses his fists. Although i have to say that he is right because she is his girlfriend, but i have to say that i protect every member of my Special Ops. She is one of my man so i will protect her from further unknown damages that may be cause by him. She is not only my man but one of my family member. I rule every single soul in Special Ops. as my brother or sister and it's my duty as their leader to protect them. I'm not snatching his girlfriend, and i will never do that, it's just that she is there for me when i'm down, now i should be there for her when she's down. I can, dare and will say that i'm no backstabber(that's what he call me) on breaking the news to his girlfriend on what he did because stating facts is not illegal. And it's either me or fad to break the news. It's just on that day medusa was absent so i did the right thing by telling her what i should have said. He also mentioned that my results and attitude sucks. I think that that statement of his is vice versa. And i don't care what you say, fat or fit, i am innocent till proven guilty.

Haha..Sophie called me today. But she call me Toro instead. Haha..at first i thought wrong number. So i took that chance to ask her why Toro? Why is tuna meat and not other type of fish meat. She did not answer me. haha...let this be a mystery bah. She called me regarding next week's dinner. haix..Our parents will not be attending the dinner. Sad...it has been a long time since i met her parents. Hehe...just now on the phone we even settled what to wear le. We both will be wearing all white. Haha..cool..i will be going over to her house and we will set off from there bah..Hehe..can't wait for that day, there sure to be a lot of fun. So let the story of Toro go on bah..haha...

Toro?!?!

2004-10-17T01:18:00.000-07:00

Today(consider yesterday liao) i went out with Sophie go walk walk. We spent great time together. She came back for a wedding dinner which we will attend next week. Then this Sophie hor..She knows about my story of fish. So she created a nickname for me 'Toro'. I thought she say i very handsome mah..Because there is this handsome artise, he is also called Toro. Aiyo..how i know she not say me handsome ah..she said she give me that nick because it means 'tuna meat' in Japanese. I asked why and she said because my heart is already eaten by fish. Argh..Not suprising she said that because i know her about 2 months after i was born and she know me inside out. She also said that i need to be a fish to court a fish. It's kinda true lah..So i will not call myself galatico but Toro le..haha..cute..haha...But she called me Toro not for handsome but for tuna meat!! how can like that de..But nvm..Toro Toro lor..i dun mind it at all de..Because she call me that i think of the handsome side not the tuna meat side..hahaha..And she is not totally wrong too. So let it be, Toro bah..haha..actually the name kind of nice leh..hehe..

Hope jae and hanis will not read this entry. Cause the other time jae made me so paiseh just but saying 2 letters -SY...haha..Hanis is worst..She will sure make life hell for me de..If she see this, she sure call me Toro in school de..Have to agree it's a nice name but i will think of fish too..then i will feel paiseh again...hahaha...Tuna meat..i forget to ask why tuna instead of other type of fish. Guess i have to ask her next week bah..

The 4 musketeers

2004-10-15T23:14:00.000-07:00

The 4 musketeers

You seen the 3 musketeer but they are all female. You seen the 4 ninja turtles but they are much prettier(eh..say you all pretty leh..haha..) But i guess you never seen or heard before 'The 4 musketeers'. haha...they don't fight villians but they will be fighting their O levels. As like the story, good guys always win. So 4 of them sure to get very good grades de..hehe...Enough talking, introduction of the members of The 4 musketeers. Bottom left hand is Wei ning. Bottom right hand is zhu jiejie. Top left hand is Theresa. Top right hand is giraffe jiejie. Yeah!! i remember all your names..haha..no big deal..anyway i guess Wei ning's hobby is to smile..haha..always smiling..hehe..never is a 1 day without her signature smile de..haha..nothing wrong with it mah..cheerful mah..haha..I also remember during the Mother Tougue week, The 4 musketeers went on stage to sing a song. It's nice but i don't understand because my chinese very...hehe..eh?..found out something, The 4 musketeers hor, 2 come from GB 2 from VB...what's VB?? it's volleyball..ah lame!!..haha..

The 3 days of panic

After these 3 days get back exam papers le..hope i get good results.And of course my friends, hope they get good results too..haha..

Stuck with 2

Fish and ángel..Many people ask who will it be!! i wanna say "I don't know!!" Please..even if you all find out you will not get a million dollars right? So why find out. And the rumors cannot be trusted, i bet more will come soon. haix...

1 recovering off-form galatico

Battled the exams now waiting for results..Will i be happy with my results? Even if all A1, i will not be. Because of the departure of many people. My lion mama, zhu jiejie and giraffe jiejie. They leave me and my carp meimei alone le. Haha...you can trust me not to bully her meh?? sure can hor..course i can't bear to.hehe... Departure of the 4 musketeers meaning no more smile by wei ning le. Her smile is 1 of the top ranking de leh..Always brighten up people's day de.. Go le got 1 position missing. Departure of Rac. Haix..less another good friend, less some happiness, less some pinching. But more sorrow.

Me and my zhu jiejie

2004-10-15T21:12:00.000-07:00

I have two jiejie..Although i call 1 zhu jiejie and the other giraffe jiejie doesn't mean i'm a bad brother wor..haha...They are leaving me soon.So sad..They graduated from school le..I will miss them very very very much..Here are some pics of them..

Me and my Zhu jiejie

We comfort and talk to each other when either one of us is feeling down. She has been a really good sis. When im feeling down she will be there to kick my troubles away. Besides all those comfortting, we also had great fun together. I remember the fun we had doing service learning. We went to this Tampines Service Center and make those kids happy. Haha..She has also taken good care of me in PB..hehe..she also expose me to volleyball which ended up became a commedy for her because that ball and me enemy. Always hit me de...haha..

Fish and Zhu jiejie

2004-10-15T21:11:00.001-07:00

Fish and Zhu jiejie

Fish also known as my carp meimei. Haha..once i see her i sure happy de..Dunno why. Maybe she got special powers. Hehe...She one of a kind. She is erm..cannot find anyword in my dictionary for her because she is just too good. But i know that she rocks my world..and still rocking it. Fish is different from the other two jiejie. Firstly, she my meimei not jiejie. Secondly, i dare bully my two jiejie but don't bear to bully fish. Thridly, i can see her for 1 more year. Hahaha...I dare say she is the only person i sacrifice myself the most le..Haha...remember her 15 birthday i made breakfast for her. It was suppose to be egg sandwich but i forgot to put the bread. So only have egg. Haha..Fish is also zhu jiejie's sis. Making her my sis too. Hate mingle with love is used to describe her. Haha..

Me and my giraffe jiejie

2004-10-15T21:11:00.000-07:00

Me and my Giraffe jiejie

She is close to my zhu jiejie so everytime they will be together lah..hehe..she is a good sis. Although i didn spend much time with her, she still treat me as her bro. Showing me concern. Haha..i remember one time after sch the senior prefects and exco were practising a dance for Mr. Low departure. Zhu jiejie and her chase me round the school about 2-3 times. Reason i forget le..But there is one thing i wun forget is having a sis called giraffe jiejie..hehe..

Breaking News...

2004-10-15T19:21:00.001-07:00

Honsonn leaving PB and giving up is 'empire' because angel is no entrance to PB!! - Jae

Impossible. I am very dedicated and loyal to PB. I wouldn't leave PB for minor reasons. Even if PB is facing a major problem, i will stay by their side and fight that problem. PB has been very good to me. And if there is someone who didn't treat my prefects well, I'd tell them to whack that fella up. Haha..of cors they didn really whack lah..they hear it then laugh le..It's true that i did not want to enter PB at first and i don't wanna be the HSD. But nature took it's course making me what i am today. I enter PB because of respect for Mr. Low and rivalry against Chestnut. After going into the discipline department, Khairi a strong compettitor was fired. Chestnut was transfered over to Special Projects. Kel had his N-level. So i and lion mama handle the department. Then proceed to the election. I knew i cannot be Head Prefect even if im elected because of my position in NPCC. Wanted to say i don't want the job but no chioce, Chestnut is not qualified due to his academy. So i kana lor..But i think i've been doing a good job. I even create Special Ops. which is currently better known than other departments. So there is no reason for me to quit.

Splitting to sastifiy not 1 but many!! - Tim Sum Kia

NO WAY!!! This is crazy. First thing first, you will never see me split. I'm human leh..I don't understand why i need to split. I just unsure on what to do now. Erm..let nature takes it course bah..I have no say in this.Hehe..

Expensive butt!! - Rac

Hahaha...well..she just love pinching me and of cors that's not the only part she pinch lah..haha..Now i hope she can pinch as long as she like because she's leaving amd i don't want her to leave. I'm so sad. It reminds me of the last episode of 'Friends' where Rachel leave. To add to that, they have the same name. She is a real cool person. Nice person to be with(i mean as friend). And now she is leaving, im so..argh..lost of words now. Hope she comes back and visit us. I will really miss her. Hope life goes well for her there. Rac..your a good prefect, a good friend. And now you may be gone but the picture of YOU BULLYING ME will always be with me. hehe..stupid hor..haha...good prefect, good friend is the truth hor..hehe..

You say goodbye they say hola - Soccer mates

Yes..i have a problem with my team. The 'manager' rabbit cannot stand my popularity and i'm too expensive for him. Although i'm captain of that team but i don't find a reason why should i stay when other teams are paying higher than you. Friendship is in my current team but future is in a team which i went on loan to for $230. Money is not the problem in this because the thing that i get more is friendship. Money cannot buy friendship. After leading Npcc to victory over Boys' Brigade 23-0 and scoring 9 of them(top scorer), many other teams are eyeing for me. I may get a transfer because he does not value the word 'soccer' at all. I'm just waiting till the time is ripe before leaving. Then about popularity, i just cannot stand it. 1 word - SIAO!! If popularity can worsen our friendship, i don't find a reason why i should stay anymore. However, other players don't want me to leave. The team did not play well when i didn play for them due to the loan and injuries. After comming back to them, i straight away lead them to a 5-3 victory against Tampines Rovers under 18. Guess they are the only people who treasure me.

Caught in long hair again - Friends

Yup..I gonna leave my hair long during my holidays. I'm already starting it now, or maybe 2 weeks ago. My hair..the back i most proberly follow my class monitress fatin bah. Then the front i may leave like what i have now. I think it's possible as my hair grows very fast. Haha..

Fish and chips - Xiao ying

Ermmm...Ermm..Erm..dunno lah..what you ask almost same as Tim sum kia..So no answer to it..

This is the only place where i guess i can answer your questions. Because i'm too buzy in school to answer your questions.

~Icy flame~

2004-10-14T21:39:00.000-07:00

1 more day to end of exams but i'm feeling the siansation. My proposals have no news yet. Hope tomorrow bah. I'm getting more anxious minute after minute.

Why icy flame?? Hm..because the fire in me is frozen until now. No spark is given to relight the flame in me. C'mon..i can't be off-form all the time. Haix..of my fire will melt the ice instead of the ice putting my fire to an end.

Haix...Icy flame occurs even in my life. Haix..Guess what jae said it's true bah. I have a fan club. For students who want it, i guess better not. Because it's not a joke. Problems occur, rumors round you and other things that play with your temper. Hehe...i wonder how ah sean handle it. Now recieve some call on my handphone by some unknown person. 1 call herself shirley(should be like that spell lah, sounds like that to me) and the other nameless de.. The nameless de is Sec 1 from jyss. Call me to ask lame questions that does'nt really bothers them mah. Why would someone call you and ask you "what are you doing now har". It's sooo....haix.. Wonder who is giving my handphone number around. So sickening!!! Why me?!?! I'm not handsome leh..I'm not tall..and i am lousy in my mother tongue...So why me?? haix...trouble man...pestering me on handphone where they use their house phone!! Where got fair?!..Go find someone handsome like erm..erm..tall like sean..fit like jae mah...come find me..haix..Wanna know more about me then don't let me know who are you..haha..funny character..hahaha..

Agrh + Yeah = ??

2004-10-13T18:31:00.000-07:00

Did not blog for the past few days because of exams..Now wanna say a few things. Firstly settle some unhappiness.....

80 mintues of torture (positive version)

Why am i doing this killer paper

All it makes me is a big failure

Why ask me what's an alvoeli

Why ask me what's a bronchi

These questions are hard to please

Why must you come ask thee

It only makes me an handicap flea

Glucose, sucrose and maltose

They just make my eyeslids close

Blame the setter

Blame the school

Blame the teachers

Blame the cleaners

Blame the paper

Blame the people

Blame the food

Blame the cook

Blame like hell in a red blood cell

Above all i blame myself

Another same year is thy diamond pawn for free

Guess life is just an unfinish script

The devil's strength chase talents away

Then why must he make me stay

Fiery results come what may

Hope the devil take the losers away

I think thats all i have to say

Suffering slow death day by day

Haha..Due to anger there is a negative version. Please don't hate me for this as i am already hated by the paper and im just venting my anger. Read only when you are mutual enough to accept. Highlight to see.

80 mintues of torture (negative version)

Why am i doing this fucking paper

All it makes me is a fucking failure

What the hell is alvoeli

What the hell is bronchi

Fucking questions are hard to please

Why the hell you ask thee

It only makes me a bloody flea

Screw the setter

Screw the school

Screw the teachers

Screw the cleaners

Screw the paper

Screw the people

Screw the food

Screw the cook

Screw like hell in red blood cell

Above all i screw myself

Another fucking year is a piece of shit

Guess life is another fucking unfinish script

The devil's strength chase those talents away

Then why must satan make me stay

Fucking results come what may

Hope the fuckers take those losers away

I think that's all i have to say

Suffering a slow fucking death day by day

Some unknown person('what?') made a comment and what he/she say it's true. Fish and angle which one? haix..at first got four de..lucky now left two. Don't mistaken, i will do things for either anyone de. The things just have to be righteous lah.. Those sugar in my blog i will give to everyone de. It's just that it's her birthday comming up and some other reasons lah. Fish...i did many things for her too. I made breakfast(which mama lingmong laugh at me for almost the whole month because hehehe)for her, took her place in getting scolding and punishment and many more. Talking about this incident, let me link back....

I had a close sister. I used had because some bad stuff happen. I had i querral with my man about duties. Then mama lingmong came in and she was like against me. I listen to her first so we went into prefects room(the old one) and talk about it. But what mama lingmong didn't know is that my man used violence on someone already and he was still not sastified. So i proved him wrong and we did some investigations and i was right but he did not want to admit. Somehow three of us broke into another querral. I used scolded her and said some things. haix...what i did was wrong but does she now that how much im under. Comments saying im not strict towards the prefects. Rumors about me all over. During that time i set up Special Ops. and i want to make it the best of the best. So i used that time as a threat to the members in the team saying that i may joke with you, i may be soft hearted but i can be too hard for you to handle too. Yes, i succeed doing it but so what?! i won a battle and Special Ops. was on task but i lost a sister. Athough im sad, but i cannot let this bother me. I need to handle my off-form condition and i didn apologise to her for about 2 weeks before i finally said somthing to her. But it was too late. Now, i guess that's it. If she has a chance to read this, i just want to tell her i've changed.

Okay. Back to topic. People like mama lingmong, fad, tim sum kia, jae, right vanguard, left vanguard, lion and the unknown 'what?'asked me before already but i didn answer. Not that i refuse but i don't know. For now im not thinking about this anymore.

3e2 outing..Jae said something about changes i wanna make. I didn do that because.....I did something better. I handed up a proposal that will change the school image, PB and even a minor part of the society. I set my vision high and now the only thing i hope that my proposals are approve. I think i will know the results by tomorrow. If approve, i promise that i will give my everything to it. And if approve, i think i will regain my on-form condition liao..Come on, approve...make it possible for me to change the school, PB and that tiny mini part of society. I bet the question will be "you...a student of jyss..15 years old..what can you do to change that small part of society??" hahaha...once approved, i will show you how. jyss has given me a chance as HSD, let me give that small part of the society a chance for a better life. Hehehe..actually i didn thought of this de..i was enlighted by jae. Wanna say a thank you in advance. If i have success, many others will also say thank you. I hor..instead of feeling happy i feel scared because i scared that my proposals will be rejected. I even give a little speech in my proposal. Hehe..here's a glismp of it...

"Everyone that comes to school is given a chance whether to study or learn to become a better person. This goes same to the unfortunates. They are already suffering and we as Singaporeans should help each other. So let this be the time where the students and prefects work together as one to help the unfortunate."

I'll be watching you..

2004-10-10T16:42:00.000-07:00

I injured my hand serverely 2 weeks ago. I've suffered a fracture knuckle and the condition worsen because i delayed going to the doctor. I suffered the intense pain for about 4 hours than was brought to a doctor. What to do? No one at home mah and wanna be strong man mah..haha..When go to this chinese doctor thought he will push and pull my hand then okay liao. But it wasn't like this. The doctor from china said it's too badly damaged and he don't want to take the risk. So put his chinese medicine and my hand was wrap with bandage. That medicine was worst than the pain i suffered. I felt my hand was very very hot like being burn. I also had this feeling that the medicine is going into my skin. Yuck..but i really felt that way. Today went to a final check-up on my injured hand. The doctor from china thinks he acting chinese swordman movie. He said that he cannot believe that my hand can recover that fast. He also said it is because my body 'qi' which quicken my recovery by about minimum 1 month. I also remembered that he mention something about 'yin' and 'yang'. He say my 'yang' overwhlem my 'yin'. I just sat there and listen his fairy tale. Guess he young that time, which is about 50 years ago, watch alot of swordman shows. Haha..wanted to say rubbish de but i think ' he's a well-known doctor from china and there are some things i don't know de.' After that i went home lor.. Then i think about what that china man said. Maybe it's true leh. Because i have a...ah..don't wanna say. haha..

1 more day to her birthday. Making it the last gift before the birthday. Let's make this special bah..Erm..the final item has something to do with the title de..hehe..

I'll be watching you

Every breath you take

Every move you make

Every vow you break

Every step you take

I'll be watching you

Every single day

Every word you say

Every game you play

Every night you stay

I'll be watching you

angel can't you see

You belong to me

Cause I'm a part of this

In every breath you take

Every move you make

Every vow you take

Every smile you fake

Every claim you speak

I'll be watching you

Threaten love..

2004-10-09T21:44:00.000-07:00

Haix..i recieved a threat from someone saying that on 11 October something is gonna happen to me. They call themselves sugar papa, sugar mama & one more don't know what. I was thinking and thinking. I think i got it. 11 October conicides with ángel big day. Agrh..don't tell me..Nevermind, i recieved your threat and i don't think you will suceed. Because if your plan is for after school, tell you three something. I am going home earlier than you all. I guess all three of you are lower sec.de..So too bad.. Hahaha... But warning first. If three of you do anything that will hurt her. I swear to my godpa that i will come hard on you three. Okay, for now forget about that. As promise there will be something for her everyday till her birthday. Erm..say sorry first because i'm not really good at this. Hehe..

Rays of Love

Disappearing dark sky by sunrise

Lovely flowers starts to rise

Awakening my love just for you

The sun won't be there for me

The clouds will be covering it

I just hope that you are there for me

Can you tell me what is love

Can you show me what's it like

Can you tell me what is love from your heart

Let me open the door to your heart

Let you feel the sunlights

Let it kill the coldness

For love

Find a road for both of us

To bury the pain in both of us

All the colours of life will be bright

There will be no more unhappiness

As all are thrown away

Everything will start to bloom

Tell me what is love

Tell how it's like

Tell me what is love, our love

Open up our happiness

Kick away the coldness

Lets end the loneliness

Through our love

I don't want my secondary life without you

Your the primary part that's what i believe

Let me hold your hand and pass troubles like a breeze

Isn't love our destiny

I want to know what's it like

I want to feel what's it like

I dare sacrifice my pride

To be love

I want to see the heaven's light

I want to feel that your smile is bright

Let's just make this right

To be love

haix...back to topic..I will go through the exams even if i'm off-form. Never give up!!! I really hope for 風雲變色. .But i think my burden will be carried from day to day. Someone once said to me "concentration over strength". I will not dissapointed him de.. I will survive those crisis by myself. I can't be waiting for someone to help as i don't know when that someone will appear. What i'm gonna do is to continue to follow that great saying by someone great. Other things i after exams than settle. SA2...HERE I COME!!!

Why i go to school for?!?!

2004-10-08T22:35:00.000-07:00

Some questions asked by some people and i think that i will answer them in today's entry.

Qns: "Are you facing problems?" -fad and teachers of JYSS
Ans: When you all asked me this question i answered "No." Now i guess i have to answer your question truefully. Yes, i am facing a big problem. I am in an off-form state and suffering. I am carrying a big burden, too huge to carry. I guess that this off-form state of me will carry on even until after the exams and waiting for someone to make me back to the on-form condition. Who will that be i am not sure yet. But if there is this someone really appears, i will inform you all de..Guess post exams activities is called post exams suffering for me. I guess i am gonna survive the exams with a off-form condition. But will i be able to survive without breaking down is still a question mark.

Qns: "Do you think that it is impossible to recover from your off-form condition before 2005?" - friends
Ans: Impossible!! You must be kidding. I just have to wait for someone to save me as i can't save myself. And just to let you know,

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.

Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.

Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare.

Impossible is potential.Impossible is temporary.

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING

Qns: "Why i go to school for?" -friend

Ans: Haha..i got what she meant. Yar...staying off-form is an excuse for not being on-form. But do u know that it's difficult for me. Anyway i come to school to study, learn to hanlde stress and for my future. . I don't really like school. Except for those time together with my friends. There's also something else but you don't know. Why i go to school is because i want to prove myself that i'm still a galatico. Here's little something for her for her up-comming birthday.

That's what i go to school for

Her voice is echoed in my mind
I count the days till she is mine
Can’t tell my friends cos they will laugh
I love a member of the staff

I fight my way to front her type

To get the best view of her sight

She is on PB's floor

As she works hard and shows me more...

That’s what I go to school for
Though it is a real bore
Friends can call me crazy

Don't know why she craves me
That’s what I go to school for
Though it is a real bore
Girl-friends I’ve had plenty
None like princess 'hehe'
That’s what I go to school for
That’s what I go to school for

So she already fifthteen
But that doesn’t bother me
She's always working out of bound
But I find a reason to go round
There are trees outside her home
I'll make sure she's never alone
I see her in Msn

I can’t help but stop and chat

That’s what I go to school for

Though it is a real bore

Friends can call me crazy

Don't know why she craves me

That’s what I go to school for

Though it is a real bore

Girl-friends I’ve had plenty

None like princess 'hehe'

That’s what I go to school for

Everyone that follows me all day knows that i'm looking at you in a different way
I guess thats why my marks are getting so high
I can see those tell tale signs telling me that I was on your mind
I could see that you want it more when I tell you that your what i go to school for
Your what i go to school for

Hope her heart is not like a trunk
Or my efforts will be hung
I can't bare to say goodbye
My friends they can’t believe their eyes...

That’s what I go to school for
Though it is a real bore
Friends can call me crazy
Don't know why she craves me
That’s what I go to school for
Though it is a real bore
Girl-friends I’ve had plenty
None like princess 'hehe'

That’s what I go to school for
That’s what I go to school for...

3 more days to her birthday. So 100% there will be something for her everyday down here till her birthday. Hehehe...

Do the right thing..

2004-10-07T17:14:00.000-07:00

Have i done the right thing yesterday by telling tim sum kia the truth that she is hidden from. I think so lah. Actually fad want to tell her de but fad was absent yesterday so i went to break the bad news to tim sum kia. She cried in front of me and i was sad for her. Hope that she can settle everything soon and spend her happy up comming birthday.

Today this question 'Did i do the right thing' appears in my mind again. During POA lesson 1 member of the Big Four was bullied. Some bullies threw crushed paper at him but he did not react. He controlled his temper all the way. The first thing that went through my mind was i could'nt just look at him being bullied. At first, I shifted my seat and sitted beside him and hope that crushed paper will stop flying forward. I did not react straight away as those bullies are my friends. When the crushed paper hit him again, i turned behind and said "why not you guys concentrated to the lesson instead of throwing paper at someone." During that time i was looking at Haw Wei but im not saying him. I didn't expect Haw Wei to erupt and wanted to pick a fight with me. I did reply to his 'poisonous words' and he carried on. He has changed a lot when i first knew him. Although sometimes i join in the fun but please don't go overboard. Kia Sai Ko, B1, B2 & William are human too, they have feelings too. Think of it, what if you are the one being bullied, how will you feel?? Anyway, i'm sorry my friends if i made you all angry but i just got to Do The Right Thing..
It was only after recess that i knew i did the right thing. I was even praised by a teacher of me being a good leader as i stayed calm and did not fight back. But she also said i must improve on my studies.hehe...anyway thanks cher...

4 more days from now is her birthday.Hm..let me give her 1 nick bah...everytime her her her.Erm..erm..erm..'ángel' bah..It means angel in spanish. Why ángel?? Because she added magic to my life without her knowing it. Really hope that she shows some respones to me At least some hints lah. I know that she knew it le due to the mass spreading from PB to her CCA. Know that she is revising for her SA2. Hm..4 more days ah..got present le leh..a nick to replace 'her her her'. Okay..the present is rather silly.(make that very) Hehe...hope she can do well which she will lah. Because of the fearful exams, I did not have a proper conversation with her yet. Hm...i hope that after exams i can really chat with her. Hehe...

Hm...now for the happy stuff. Once in a year de..Today is someone's birthday. That someone always bully me and tease me with ángel de..Don't know lah..she said that is i bully her than correct. haha...so sickening(one of her 'famous' quotes)..hehe.. Few days ago she was sick and i was laughing at her but now i'm the one who is sick. Must be she pass to me de..Her virus makes you go sick then crazy de..hehe...Argh..Nevermind lah..you sick 1 time i sick 1 time. Now fair le wor.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word..

2004-10-06T18:28:00.000-07:00

Guess it's true that sorry seems to be the hardest word. It's not that i have no guts to say. But sometimes i don't even have a chance to say. So lets proceed to my sorry list...

[[~Sorry list~]]

My Godpa...guess he won't be able to rest in peace seeing my in this state. Failure is dangling in the air and it will hit me anytime now. I'm determine for sucess but i guess sucess is not determine to stay with me. I'm really afraid that i will not do well. Many people may think that i've not put in enough effort but do they know that they are wrong. If i really fail, i wun be able to forgive myself. Godpa..you told me you love me then why did you leave me all alone? i'm fighting a losing war on my own and i hope to turn the table around. I really need you now. Help...

My POA Teacher...i have to agree that you are a good teacher but i'm a lousy student. The tears you dropped in my class is the care and concern for us. i guess POA is a killer for me and i have to sacrifice it for my other subjects. It's a tough decision to make but it's guess part of my strategy to score in my overall. I promise i will make up for you next year. It's not that i resigned to fate that i will fail my poa. It's just that i wanna concentrate on the other subjects where i have confidence in it. Sorry...hope you forgive me..

My Mentor Kel...because of your teaching i attained the highest level in disicipline department and the most important sector of PB. I'm a stone and you polish me into a jewel. The things you tought me and the opportunities you given me made me shine. I already brought my discipline department to the highest level and even created a team of talented prefects 'special ops'. Guess i did not dissapoint you but im sorry for not being able to do a good job of assiting the DM controlling the school's discipline. I always wanted to shift my team to the welfare of students but i guess i failed. I'm sorry for not telling you that i failed as i wanted you to concentrate on your O level. I promise after my exams i will bring my team to glory by being sucessful in the discipline side. Trust me, i've never break my word. Lastly, i'm also sorry for not giving you a birthday present yesterday. Sorry...

It's Her...guess i can't even give you a chance to enter PB. haix...yar..i know the word is weak. I can't even do a small thing for you. I was sad when i heard this news. haix...guess my planning for you will be in the bin soon. I'm sorry. Please forgive me on my failure to bring you into PB. I think the sky really isn't that blue for me. Black clouds covering the skies and lighting are waiting to strike me with a word FAILURE!! And it no raindrops will appear as tears to pity me. Anyway, i'm really really really sorry...

My Parents...raise me and gave me the best. I could never ever express how much i love you two. I will not be in this world without both of you. I promise that i will try my very best for my SA2 and make you both proud. But it may not be perfect as i am suffering problems which you two do not know anything about them. It's not i don't trust you. It's just that i feel that i am old enough to settle my own problems and i don't want to worry you. Sorry for this year's academic results. But i will work hard and my SA2 will be better. Sorry for all the things i've done to make you sad, angry & disapointned.

Next Real Madrid??

2004-10-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

Haix...although i like Real Madrid but i hope my condition will not be similar to their present state. Especially during this period which is the EXAMS!!! haix....

Haix...Out of my 11 years of education, this year has been the worse. Since January until my SA1, i'm not been doing well. Semestar 2 started off quite okay, got back my distinctions but it only lasted for 3 short months. I slumped everything by only getting 1 distinction and barely pass the rest in September. Even have failing results. Feel so sad but no one is there for me and i had to survive on my own. Now, here comes the final test of my sec 3. But there is always this question in my mind, "Will the off-form me be able to make it??" haix...what a time for this question but i have no chioce.

Haix...next is i always wanted to bring her into PB but they said that they will not be recruiting any sec 2 le. Argh...what's that man...i always wanted her to be in but now it's like a dream destroyed. Other than that, i was brought into PB as a second batch and now they are like destroying my birth place. Haix...if you think i will be the same, your wrong. This is not the first time for me being dissapointed in PB. As i said before, "if i can't recruit her, i'm leaving, Chester will take over & i want to see how PB survive without 1 of the 3 galaticos.." I will make final decisions after exams. But even if i stay, i will practise 'isolationism'. haix...why must things end up this way??

Guess the number of questions i have and my 'haix..' my have can't round up the torture i'm feeling now..haix..

My Bio..

2004-10-04T22:30:00.000-07:00

First time doing blog(except for english lesson)..hehe..hm..self intro bah..

Name: Honsonn
Age: 15
gender: male
ethnicity: chinese
Hiding spot: S'pore
Horoscope: Pieces
DOB: 19 March 89
hobby: Soccer..Badminton..swimming
height: 173cm
weight: 65kg
Eye colour: Brown
Hair colour: Black

~Likes~
literature..family members..friends..chocolate ice cream..eat..art..Chelsea FC..Real Madrid..Fernando Morientes..TV..my computer..my bed..my room..fun..

~Dislikes~
creepie crawlies..exams..stress..insects..bitter stuff.. bullies..

[=[ Do u knoW?? ]=]
1. i dun really like scolding people..
2. lousy at handling relationships
3. never get into a steady relationship before (surprise??)
4. blush quite easily
5. spend quite a sum of $$ only for my hair
6. i'm running out of hairstyles
7. careful u get Punk'd by me someday
8. play soccer(striker) for a team which pays me $$

wanna sleep le...guess thats all for today..